lately i felt like i m totally different from the old me
and also different from other people

this feeling make me think of an abnormal side of me
deep down... i accept who ever i am or will be...
but still worrying about the expectation of people around me

what wrong with being a different from other people?

are we suppose to live the same way, the same pattern
as what normal people do?

is it wrong to be different?

....

At the end of this journey.. i finally find something

the people who really accept me for who ever i am

and the most preciously The One who always there for me for who ever i m!

why is that so?

....

Traning kali ini di adakan bertempat di Auditorium FRIM, Kepong.

Tempat terhad ye untuk 20 orang sahaja, setakat hari ini 12 orang telah mendaftar. Sila hubungi saya untuk maklumat lanjut

Allahhu ya Rahman
Allahhu ya Rahman
Allah.. Allah.. Allah.. Allah.. Allahu ya Rahman

berlalu waktu berlalu
sepi menghantar kembali padaMu
bersimpuh aku bersimpuh
dalam lelah hati memohon padaMu

di pintu kasihMu hati kan mengadu
di dalam gelapku memohon ampunMu
kasihani aku terangi jiwaku
sinari hidupku

dan berharap belas kasih
dan berharap maaf untuk
segala salah dan dosa dari hitam di langkahku
semoga engkau beri
setitik cahaya terang
sebelum masa hilang dari pandangan

Thank you Allah for your answer

Thank you Allah for your reply

Thank you Allah for your care

Thank you Allah for your love

Thank you Allah for your mercy

I m the one who forget my own promises

Thank you Allah for all the chances that you gave

I am so touch with your love

Please let me be the one who always repent

Please let me be the one who always remember you

Please let me be the one among your lovers

Please guide me whenever i lost

Please advise me whenever i wrong

Please guard me whenever syaitan influence me

Only with your love and forgiveness will set me free

Only You

Only You

Only You

still awake

so hopeless

felt like a LOSER

no one to talk

...and can't say anything



all

are

my

fault

.....


Allah,

give

me

an

answer


I

am

so

stupid


I

am

blind


i

can't

hear



HELP ME ALLAH


show

me

the best

direction

for me


coz..i m so stupid

and so weak

to choose

what's the best for me


O! ALLAH

PLEASE....

I HAVE PRAYED MANY TIMES

I HAVE WAITED SO LONG

PLEASE ALLAH

I WRITE IT COZ I BELIEVE THAT YOU WILL READ THIS

ramadhan sudah hampir meninggalkanku, aku pula dah ketinggalan utk puasa di awal dan dihujungnya kerana "direhatkan" oleh Allah, hanya dapat berpuasa 17hari sahaja ramadhan ini..huhuhu..insaf rasa..Allah tahu betapa tak mampunya aku berpuasa dalam erti kata sebenar..

tak mampu menahan marah, tak mampu menahan emosi..pokok pangkalnya tak mampu menahan nafsu di bulan didikan ramadhan ini..

astagfirullahahazim..bila muhasabah balik..check2 balik hati ini..rasa malu sgt di hadapan Allah, sepanjang bulan ini..byk sgt buat dosa yang meskipun orang tak tahu tapi Allah Maha mengetahui segala yang Zahir dan Batin...

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Puasa Hatiku?
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